Why do you hate me so much? Why are you using me and hurting me?
How and why can you have so many boyfriends? Or girlfriends? Or whatever? With each little piece of the puzzle comes less and less clarity. I have no clue what or who it is you like. I never thought it would be so painful trying to love someone. 😢
Don’t you see what’s going on? Why what’s happening is happening? This shouldn’t be so hard. From my perspective, you are either a player or you aren’t. You are either straight or you are not. I honestly don’t know. I can’t understand and I am trying my best to figure you out and I’m just trying to protect myself from getting hurt. Because I love you. At least, I want to. If you let me. Because I think you are beautiful and pretty. And yes, ‘sexy’ and ‘hot’, too, like you think I must think you are. But I also know you must be smart and very, very clever, and funny, and full of sprit, and adventure, and kindness, and those are the things that make me want to get to know you. But no one wants to be someone’s last resort. Or the guy who is just there to make her feel better when the one she really wants breaks her heart. I’ve been the loser in that story too many times.
Please help me understand. If all you care about is fame and fortune, then please go somewhere else and use someone else to find it. I will be heartbroken, but that is my cross to bear. But if you want to be loved, why play games? Why make it so hard? I care about you, so please don’t use me or tease me if you are just out for someone or something else.
So nice to see a healthy and beautiful Marion Bartoli again these days!
Allie Kiick’s return from injury and illnesses took another couple substantial leaps forward the past two weeks with appearances in the semifinals and quarterfinals of a pair of USTA Pro Circuit events in Evansville, Indiana ($15K) and Louisville, Kentucky (%60K). In the Women’s Hospital Classic in Evansville, Kiick knocked out Stephanie Nemtsova 6-0 6-1, Jada Robinson 6-2 6-3, and Kennedy Shaffer 6-4 4-6 6-3 before falling to Marcela Zacaria in the semifinal 0-6 4-6. In the Kentucky Bank Tennis Championships in Lexington, Kiick beat Katie Boulter 7-5 6-3 and Chloe Paquet 6-4 7-5 before losing to Vera Lapko in the quarterfinals 1-6 4-6. After nearly two years away from the game suffering from a variety of ailments that included skin cancer, mononucleosis and not least of all, multiple surgeries on both knees, Kiick is getting the valuable match play she needs to regain her confidence that should eventually carry her back toward the top 100 in the rankings.
And oh by the way, it was nice to see Allie in action this summer as part of World Team Tennis, with the Springfield Lasers, getting complimented left and right on her “Federer-like” serve!
Keep up the hard work, Allie!
I was really moved reading this great article by David Waldstein on the struggles of life for tennis pros trying to make it in the lower tiers of professional tennis.
Thanks to Sharon Fichman (@Sharon_fichman) for retweeting it.
Knowing that such hardships and disparities exist in a sport known for its nobler and more luxurious and genteel traditions is heartbreaking. After reading that I wish every girl and boy with a dream of playing professional tennis could see their dream of making it to the top come true.
Photo montage of highlights from the 2009 and 2011 USTA Pro Circuit tournaments at Indian Harbour Beach, Florida.
Players featured: Mirjana Lucic, Melanie Oudin, Jessica Pegula, Heidi El Tabakh, Alexa Glatch, Allison Riske, Irina Falconi, Laura Robson, Maria-Fernanda Alvarez-Teran.